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September 27, 2014

6 month and 3 year check-ups

I took Presley and Reese this past week for their 6 month and 3 year check-up. Praise the Lord that both of them are incredibly healthy! I don't take it for granted that we have healthy children. It is truly only because of God.
Reese is still our chunky monkey. She weighs 17 lbs 9 oz (80%) and is 27 in long (89%) Her head measured 17.5 in (93%). She is still a big and tall girl just like she's always been. The doctor told us to keep trying to wean her off of the Zantac as best we can. She hopes that we can get her off of it by a year. I'm hopeful we can do it before. She got her vaccines and did great. She cried for about 3 minutes and then she was fine.
Presley is our tiny little shrimp. She weighs 26 lbs 8 oz (9%) and is 35.5 in tall (12%). I was not surprised she was so little in weight but was shocked at how short. I've always thought she was a tall girl, obviously not. The doctor thinks that she might go through a growth spurt soon but if not then she will probably be pretty short. Crazy! I talked with the doctor a lot about her leg pains that I've been so concerned about. She said it's probably growing pains but she said we'd keep an eye on it. Especially since she is so small it might be growth hormone, but she doesn't seem too concerned. They did prick her finger to check her bone marrow and everything came back great. So for right now she looks healthy. 
Praise the Lord everything is good. 

September 22, 2014

Brave Weekend

This past weekend I decided to be brave and travel 2.5 hours ALONE to my parent's house. I must have had a crazy moment to decide do this, but I'm glad I did. We had a great weekend. We left super early Friday morning to try and beat the rush hour traffic as well as work around Reese's nap schedule. We were on the road about 6:45 and it was a pretty pleasant ride. We were all ready to get out of the car though.

We first stopped by my grandparent's house and spent the day with them since my parent's were both at work. My grandparents live on a farm so we got to enjoy the beautiful weather outside all day. It was great! 

That afternoon we headed to my parent's house (and we were all exhausted...and cranky!) My sister and her boys came over after we got there. Presley was exhausted but she was having so much fun.

Saturday morning my best friend and her daughter came over to see us. I so wish we lived closer for the pure fact that I'm sure our daughter's would be best friends. Funny story, Kristen sent me a text telling me that her daughter had just randomly found her wedding album and saw a picture of me and she told her, "Mom, it's a picture of my best friend's mom". I so hope she is true!

We spent Saturday afternoon and evening just spending time with my parents. Presley had the best time and loved every minute. I know she missed her daddy (who was busy shooting a wedding) but she adored spending time with family and friends we don't get to see often enough. 

We left early Sunday morning and drove in straight to church. We were all so tired but it was worth it. I'm hoping now that I braved it once and we survived that maybe I'll be able to brave it again. We'll see. 
In other news, Reese became an official person today! We FINALLY got her Social Security card. We've been working on it for months and it finally came. We were all pretty excited (as you can tell)

Reese's Half Birthday

Yesterday was Reese's half-birthday. I forget how much babies change from month to month. Reese is a completely different child than she was a month ago. She is changing every single day and it's so fun to watch.
-She probably weighs close to 18lbs and is about 29 inches long
-She is wearing size 3 diapers and size 4 diapers at night. She wakes up every single morning with a poopy diaper...and poopy pants...and poopy sheets! It's disgusting. So we've been trying larger diapers at night to help. So far no such luck.
-She wears size 6 month clothes. She can also wear some size 6-9 months.
-She doesn't wear shoes yet but she can wear size 2-3 shoes when she is wearing them.
-She is still drinking Nutramigen. She takes about 4 bottles a day and each bottle is between 6-8oz.
-She eats a little bit of solid food at lunch time. She's tried carrots, sweet potatoes, peas, green beans, pears, peaches, and prunes. The orange veggies don't do so well on her tummy.
-She is getting better at grabbing and eating puffs. She's even tried a couple of tiny pieces of crackers.
-She still does Zantac 2 times a day. We've tried many times to get her off of it but so far we've been unsuccessful.
-She sleeps in her crib all the time.
-She goes to bed about 7:30-8:00 and sleeps until about 6:00. (many mornings she's up by 5:15 though!)
-She takes 2-3 naps a day. Each nap is anywhere from 45 min-2 hrs.
-She sleeps on her tummy. Now that she can sit and stand it's harder to put her to bed. We've been rocking her a little to get her to calm down before she goes to bed. She is getting a little better at soothing herself to sleep if she is really tired.
-She has pretty much stopped sucking her thumb and has never taken a paci.
-She stands up when she wakes up and waits for us to come and get her.
-She still only has 2 teeth but I'm certain 2 more are coming in.
-She can sit like a pro.
-She is crawling everywhere! Like a legit crawl. Crazy baby.
-She is pulling up on everything.
-She is really interested in her toys these days. We can normally put her on the floor with some toys and she'll be content for awhile. 
-She sticks her tongue out all the time. We used to think it was because she started feeling her teeth but she does it all the time. I think she's just trying to be funny.
-Her little personality is starting to show more and more. She has a pretty big temper but she can also be the absolute sweetest thing.
-She adores her sister above everyone else. Presley loves her too.
-Reese finally got her social security card and is a real person! (as of today)

September 17, 2014

What If?

I've written on my blog a lot about how much fear I have now that I have kids. Until you have kids you can't really understand the type of worries and fears you suddenly have. There are times when I am literally frozen in fear of the "what if's". I can make myself sick with anxiety thinking about all the terrible things that could happen to my family.

For the past few years I feel like I have been stuck in a rut with my walk with God because of my fear of the "What if's?" As a Christian I know that I'm not supposed to worry. I know that God is in control and that everything is for a reason. But even knowing this doesn't always help. In fact, some times I feel like knowing this makes things worse. 
 I want so badly to be close to God. I want to be in a deep and intimate relationship with Him. I've been closer to God than I am now and I want that...and even closer than before. But I always have this same thought in the back of my mind and I can't seem to shake it. I know that God works through people's struggles. I have seen so many friends that have gone through intensely painful things only to find themselves closer to God than ever before. I am fully aware that God uses trials to strengthen us. And I guess knowing that I fear that as I get closer to God then I will be tried and tested to see if my faith is true. And for me the way I feel like I would be tested the most is for something to happen to my family for me to have to trust God. Does this make sense at all? 

My fear is always that if I truly commit myself to growing insanely close to God then I'll have to just let go of this fear and trust that even if something did happen to my family that God would be in control. And I don't want to! Not that I don't want to grow closer to God and not that I don't want to let go of the fear...I just don't want to have to go through the difficult times to make me stronger in the Lord. I just want to be closer to God without any pain. Does anyone really want pain? I honestly don't even like talking about this because I always worry that it's going to come back and bite me in the rear. But I'm tired of this fear. And I feel like God is trying to work through me to help me. 
So Sunday morning during church as I was singing I had this random thought. I can only expect that it came from the Holy Spirit because it was so random. I think the song might have been about singing praises to God for "ten thousand years and forever more" or something but honestly I don't remember it at all. But all of a sudden I had this random thought come to my mind, "What is the most terrible thing that could happen to you right now?" And of course my first thing I thought of was loosing my family through death. It is literally my worst fear. But then the very next thought was, "Then what if that happened? Would I still be God?" 
I know as a Christian this is not a profound thought. I know God is God and always will be no matter what. But it was the first time in awhile that I really stopped and thought that if something terrible truly happened to me would I still be able to believe that God is good and that I could still go on. It's tough to answer because right now I'd say there would be no way I could handle loosing my children. But I think the point is not for me to be paralyzed in fear worrying about what could happened when I'm not guaranteed tomorrow. And no matter what does happen life is really all about death anyways. Our life is so temporary but we will be praising God for "ten thousand years and forever more". And if God chose to take away everything I have it would miserable. I would be devastated. But then I would live this life glorifying him and know that I have an eternity with Him that is far greater than any blessing I could ever have on this earth. 

I'm not over this fear. No where close. But I feel like God is working in me. I've poured my heart out to some close friends that I respect spiritually, I'm doing a bible study that at times feels like it was written just for me, (Beth Moore's Children of the Day) and I have sensed God speaking to me in other ways. God is working and that is exciting. And this may just always be that thing that keeps me humbled and trusting in God. But I felt like I should share this so that maybe it would help me process it all. And maybe, just maybe, it might encourage someone else out there that is dealing with the same thing. 

Random Side Note::
Drew would like for me to mention that these pictures are not the greatest. He was playing with some lights and ended up not really liking the outcome. However, I thought they were pretty cute and decided to use them anyways.

Completely in Love

I seriously can't get enough of my girls. They adore each other more than I ever could have imagined they would. When I was pregnant I hoped they would love each other. I expected that for awhile Presley would maybe just tolerate the baby but then she would get annoyed by her and move on to bigger and better things. I can honestly say that she absolutely adores her baby sister. She is so sweet to her. She is always worried about her and makes sure she is ok. There are so many times when she will just randomly tell Reese, "I love you" and it melts my heart. Reese thinks Presley is the coolest person ever and will light up every time she is near. If Reese is upset then all we have to do is get Presley in front of her and she is calm. I love the way they love each other and I pray they always love each other this much...even in the midst of the fights that I know are inevitable! 

September 10, 2014

"When I was a Wittle Baby!"

I hear that phrase about a hundred times a day from Presley, "When I was a wittle baby". So often we will tell her about things we are doing with Reese that she used to do as a baby. And I think she understands that. But then there are times she makes no sense at all and it's hilarious. For instance she might say, "When I was a wittle I will mommy's clothes when I get bigger" Um...what? Who know's what goes through her mind sometimes. 

 We also hear, "But that's ok" a ton. She is a super dramatic little girl and comes by it naturally. So I can completely relate when she gets upset over little things. So I'm trying to teach her how to handle her feelings a little better. I find that I'll tell her a lot, "But that's ok". I'm glad to know she is listening because she will repeat that to me a lot. And most of the time she gets it. She'll spill a little juice and tell me that it's ok. And it is. And I'm proud of her at that moment. But then she'll always tell, "But that's ok I can eat some ice cream" Again, um....what? Silly girl.
Reese is CRAWLING all over the place. Like a legit hands and feet crawl. She's not even 5 1/2 months old and she is moving all around. And the scary thing is that she is trying to pull up on everything and is not content to just sit. I guess she has some great motivation from watching her sister. 

September 1, 2014

"Nana Nana Booboo"

A few days ago Reese learned how to stick out her tongue and it has been our source of entertainment. It's the funniest thing. She'll just randomly stick it out at times but then other times you can ask her to, "show me your tongue" and she will. So I'm not sure if she understands us or not but it's pretty great. 
 It has, however, made eating quite difficult. She was doing so well for a few days at actually opening her mouth and eating from the spoon. But once she learned how to stick out her tongue that is all she wants to do. So I put in the spoon with food and she just sticks her tongue, and food, right now. Great!