Cason Crew

July 26, 2016

MOOOOOO for food

A couple of weeks ago we had our annual free food day! We all dressed like cows and headed to our favorite restaurant. It's always fun to be silly with the family. The girls had a great time getting to dress up and eat some chicken. Presley was interested in the cow this year but Reese was NOT at all. Yay for free food!!!

Our Fostering Journey so far....

This Thursday our lives will forever change. Our home will officially be an "open" home for foster children. I am terrified and excited at the same time. This has been a LONG process for us that honestly started before we ever had kids. Drew and I have talked about fostering for about 6 years now and as of Thursday we will officially be foster parents. 

Our decision to foster was not one that came easily. Drew was the one that brought up the idea first before we ever had kids. To be honest, I was absolutley and totally against the idea. I am a Type A control freak that could not imagine having kids pop in and out of our house. So I pretty much shut it down. But it's amazing how God just continued to bring it up in our lives over and over and over....and over again! Drew never pressured or even really brought it up. It was always me just talking through my fears and concerns. I fought God for a long time and told Him that if He wanted me to foster then He would have to literally push me through the door. So he did....

About a year ago I finally told Drew I was ready to adopt. I felt like it was the right time and that it was similiar to fostering but in my mind it sounded "doable". I felt like it was safer for me to get a baby that I could keep forever than having to have a kid come into my home, love them, then send them away again. So last August we started looking into adopting. It was crazy how fast that door closed for us. We both felt it almost instantly and can't really explain why. So out of frustration (to be honest) I told Drew that we should just go to a CALL (Children of Arkansas Loved for a Lifetime) meeting about fostering and just see what it's all about. So in November of last year we attended an informational meeting not knowing what to expect. 

The very first thing that was said in the meeting was "If you are here just to adopt a baby then you need to leave. Fostering is about reunification with the birth parents. It's not about adopting." Ya'll, this was tough for me to hear. I was still terrified of fostering and seriously just wanted to adopt. We stayed for the meeting but after we left I still told Drew that I didn't know if I could do this. But again, it's amazing how God changed my heart in just a week. I can honestly tell you that the only way I can explain the change is by God. I genuinely felt like by the end of the week that I could foster children and never have to adopt. So we signed up to start the process of becoming foster parents. 

Over the past 9ish months we have had extensive training classes to "prepare" us. I know that we are still completely unprepared, but we are at least ready in the eyes of the state. It's crazy how my heart has changed during this process. I started out telling Drew that I could only take a baby. Then it changed to maybe a little older but only one. Then it changed more to maybe a young sibling groups. But I finally got to the point with God where I just felt Him telling me that "You aren't prepared for any of this without me". And so at this point we are open for anything. We are sticking to just girls simply because we have girls already and it might help with safety and other issues. And of course this all might change even more after Thursday. 

After Thursday's final walk-through we will wait for calls. As we get calls asking to take children we will pray about each call and make a decision about children we can take into our home. We would LOVE your prayers as we start this journey. I am terrified. I have no idea what to expect. I can't begin to explain my worries and fears. I don't feel like a great mom most days. I can barely parents my own biological children. I can not even begin to think about adding other children to the mix. But I also can't begin to explain the total peace that I have. And for me, the control freak type A mommy, this can ONLY be explained as a God thing. We look forward to keeping you updated on our journey. 

July 24, 2016

"Are we there yet?"

Last week we got to go on a fabulous trip to Ft.Morgan beach with my entire family. My amazing parents rented a house for all of us to stay in for the week. It was fabulous! It was the girls first time to the ocean and it was so fun. 

We didn't know how it would be in the car for 9 hours, but they did ok. We left at night and drove while they slept and that made it much easier. The first night we drove about 6 hours and stopped to stay in a "nice?" hotel. It was cheap and we were tired. I'm just not going to think about how disgusting it really was. We got up the next day and drove the last few hours. I'm so glad we left when we did. The girls did so much better when they were asleep. Ha! I think we heard "Are we there yet?" at least a million times. 

We made tons of memories and had lots of "firsts". We caught crabs, flew kites, rode the waves, saw dolphins, built was wonderful! I think the best part of the week was watching the cousins play together and love on each other. The girls adore their big boy cousins and had the best time with them. 

We even got to celebrate Presley's birthday a bit early so we could have a party with the family. I think Presley liked being the center of attention for awhile. 

It was such a great trip and I'm so thankful we had the week to get away and be with family. Can't wait until we do it again next year! (right mom?)

Some more pics from my mom